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“the Amish Entrepreneur Show with Torah Bontrager” is a weekly seasonal podcast that connects trauma/sexual assault survivors with amazing entrepreneurs who are making the world safer and aren't afraid to talk about their challenges/traumas in business and life.

My ultimate goal is to collect 1,111 stories of specifically sexual assault. I believe that that number of voices speaking out is all that is needed to permanently drastically reduce the rate of sexual assault worldwide. And I believe that entrepreneurs are uniquely positioned and equipped to teach/inspire survivors to become financially self-empowered and free themselves from the 9-5 job-therapy-rent cycle that prevents them from capitalizing on their talents and skills.

Simultaneously, the show is about re-branding the Amish and establishing a new generation of Amish leaders so we can get heard and add our contribution to the world. We're taking back control of our narrative that is negatively exploited and butchered by mainstream media and so-called experts on the Amish (who are neither expert nor Amish).

Mar 1, 2017

Fiona Teng, an activist and writer of “Fatherlessness: The Presence of Dad’s Absence” on The Huffington Post discusses the long-term effects of growing up in the absence of a present father and how not feeling loved by the first male figure in her life negatively impacted her future romantic relationships.  When she was 10 years old, her family immigrated to California to avoid what might become of Hong Kong and the Beijing regime in 1997, but her father returned to Asia shortly thereafter and gradually faded from her life.  She says that “your father is the first male figure in your life and when he leaves, it makes you believe that everyone in your life will leave.”  In her 20s while on a flight to a wedding in Hawaii, she suddenly started writing and that marked the beginning of her healing journey.


  • What Fiona’s punishment was from her father for spilling rice grains from her bowl during meals
  • Fiona’s favorite mindfulness/meditation teacher
  • Some of Fiona’s romantic ups and downs that eventually led to her ability to create more healthy, romantic relationships


  1. Fiona’s writing: 
  2. “Fatherlessness: The Presence of Dad’s Absence”:
  3. Thich Nhat Hanh, Mindfulness Teacher:
  4. See S1Ep1: James Schwartz on Growing up Gay and Amish in America, Unconventional Schooling and Trump Politics for James’ answer to the forgiveness question
  5. See S1Ep3: Sovilla and Lucinda Coblentz on Escaping the Amish as Young Female Teens, Wearing Lipstick and Seeking the Path of Personal Freedom for Lucinda and Sovilla’s insight on Torah’s pre-escape days